Why am I jealous? Because I am a loner: a person that deserves more attention from her lack of friends. I am extremely introverted, unwilling to push the boundaries of my comfort zone. Even if I do, I will turn a good conversation into an awkward one, which can last no longer than 20 minutes. Unlike my friend in debate team, I am not an avid speaker. Sometimes, I am just jealous of how she can turn a controversial topic into an acceptable subject (her argument about why sixteen years old should be allowed to vote sparked my support for it). I am jealous of how some people can become successful and how I could never master half of their talents.
I become jealous for the sake of surviving in this sophisticated society. Survival of the fittest, as Charles Darwin stated, is the most essential skill to learn in order to achieve a successful life. For my prosperity in the future, I want to do well in high school and attend one of the top colleges in the U.S. Being jealous of other people's achievements is the first step of my motivation plan. Thinking about how my classmate already published a book that currently ranks second in the Short Humor Novel category on Amazon, I am encouraged to perform well at school, where I can demonstrate my intelligence by studying my butts off. Jealousy demonstrated my competitiveness at school.
For a person that lacks relationship experiences, I do not deserve to be jealous of couples. Unfortunately, I would become jealous if my lover would slowly transitions from me. The determination of my jealousy is from the fact that he would find another girl faster than I would find another guy to replace him. I dislike the feeling of being thrown aside. I would feel jealous if he send me pictures of other girls who are undoubtedly prettier than me and pictures of chats with other girls which he engages more time in. I would think to myself what did I do wrong to deserve such surprises and "compliments" from him? Jealousy is the cognate of love: without love, there is no jealousy, and vice versa.
Jealousy is unavoidable. Everyone falls for this flaw. However, if we step back and contemplate the big picture, jealousy can help us evolve into a stronger, better version of ourselves. Hopefully.
